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“in loss and grief there comes forms of beautiful redemption, empathy, and grace”

Going through old journals of mine, I came across this one. I wrote this journal when I was pregnant with our first baby, through the loss of that child, and through the darkness and haze of grief that followed. As I read through the pages remembering that time, I stumbled upon a page that brings me so much perspective.
In between the pages of sadness and hopelessness, Adalyn drew a picture. I feel like time and grief are not linear. When I was writing about my hurt and my longing for a child, I never could have imagined that one day, the child that I prayed so hard for would put her mark in between all of that hurt.

To anyone that has lost a child, or that has been praying for one, I know your hurt and I know that pain, but I also know that in loss and grief there comes forms of beautiful redemption, empathy, and grace.

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This beautiful post was shared by my friend Toni. Toni's personal journey to her family led her to become a mother of three, a professional Doula and CEO of Mountain Mama Collective. She devotes herself to encouraging and providing resources and support to moms of all stages. You can follow her at @toni.mmc or visit MMC here

Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing this with us Toni.

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Monthly Resource Recommendation 


Have you seen this documentary on Netflix? I stumbled across it the other day while searching for something to watch. 

It is about a fertility clinic in Las Vagas that hold a contest for a free round of IVF. It follows the finalists and their journey through Infertility and now IVF. 

It’s heartbreaking to see all that these couples are going through physically, emotionally and financially to try and make their dream of having a family come true. 

I’m not sure if this would be to hard for you to watch if you are in the process of IVF. It might be. It’s very informative though on how the process works and what couples go through. I wanted to share it because I found that I now understand the struggle people face with IVF and my heart goes out to them all. It also might help you make your decision on how you plan to move forward from infertility. 

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Monthly Resource Recommendation-May


This month I am recommending Fertility Matters.ca. Fertility Matters is a support group started in 1983 in Ottawa, Canada and is still going strong today providing it’s a website full of infertility resources, personal stories, statistics IVF funding information etc. 

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To Those Who Wait


Thinking of all my girls still waiting. This is My prayer for you today. 

“Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭27:14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

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Mother’s Day


Mothers Day has so many different emotions for me. I celebrate that I am so blessed to be a mom to my beautiful daughter Ruby. 
I celebrate that I was raised by an amazing selfless and caring mother. She was always there for us, so sweet and loving. I wish I could be just like her. I also mourn that for 12 years we have been slowly loosing her to Alzheimer’s disease. 
My heart breaks that today is such a painful reminder to my infertility community that still has waiting arms to hold a babe they can call their own. And moms who did hold a baby they called their own and then lost. 
Motherhood isn’t just something that comes and goes. However we experience motherhood or being mothered makes us who we are. It molds our personalities, developes our strengths and nurtures our weaknesses. 
Wherever you are on your road to motherhood. Your experiences are valuable. They have or are shaping you to be the amazing and unique mother you will be one day. 

Happy Mothers Day

“Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:15‬ ‭NIV‬‬

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Monthly Resource Recommendation 

This Month I am recommending “Amateur Nester”, this is a website/blog/resource page by Lisa Newton.


Lisa and her husband suffer with infertility and have gone through multiple rounds of IUI’s and IVF treatments. She shares her story and her timeline. She also has a book called 31 Days of Prayer During Infertility.

Her page is full of Personal stories of Infertilty from her and others. Lots of great resources including a free printable payer calendar (see below) You can download your own copy on her site www.amateurnester.com

You can like Lisa’s page on facebook at Amateur Nester: Christian Encouragement During Infertilty

And follow her on Instagram @amateurnester

Enjoy!

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This is My Infertility • Day 3


Last but not least we are featuring Melanie’s family today. Do you remember our prayer request a few months back? Well baby boy was adopted and is right where he belongs! This family had a long wait for this precious little guy. 

Sharing these photos this week shows just how unique each situation is. I know that each and every story is painful but there is hope and God has a plan for your family.  I hope these stories have encouraged you this week. 

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This is My Infertility • Day 2

Secondary infertility, adoption, infertility support, haiti adoption
This week is National infertility awareness week. I have asked for some submissions of photos and verses from people who have gone through this valley of infertility and come out on the other side, with beautiful families. 

Today we are featuring Jenn’s family. We will be sharing her full story soon! 

I wanted to encourage you, that even though this season in life is extremely hard, there is hope, there is light at the end of the tunnel and it is oh so bright
If you are one of these people and you would like to be featured this week, please send me a photo, a verse or saying that you found to be close to your heart and bullet points of your story. 

Please send to mystory@hopeforwaiting arms

I hope these stories encourage you this week. 

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This Is My infertility 


This week is the start of National infertility awareness week. This week we take the opportunity to shed some light on this issue that 1 in 7 suffer with. 

I wanted to encourage you, that even though this season in life is extremely hard, there is hope, there is light at the end of the tunnel and it is oh so bright! 

I have asked for some submissions of photos and verses from people who have gone through this valley of infertility and come out on the other side, stronger than ever. 

If you are one of these people and you would like to be featured this week, please send me a photo, a verse or saying that you found to be close to your heart and bullet points of your story. 

Please send to mystory@hopeforwaiting arms

I hope these stories encourage you this week. 

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To Attend or not to Attend? 

…….A baby shower. 

That is the question for a lot of women with infertility. Where are you at with this? I have one friend who says she is happy to go and support her friends at baby showers, baby’s are a happy thing and it has nothing to do with her situation. I also have friends who have infertility that need to avoid them, for many of their own reasons. 

I’m sharing this article which I one woman’s perspective on the issue. Give it a read, tell me your thoughts. 

https://www.facebook.com/HealingInfertility.ca/posts/1280245855428461

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March Resource Recommendation

This month I am sharing info about a conference coming up in May. I really wanted to go this year but it’s a little far for us at the moment (California). But it looks like an amazing weekend full of supportive community. If you need a getaway and some food for your heart and soul get your tickets soon! 

“Choose Joy is a two day faith-based conference event geared toward people experiencing infertility and/or desiring to build their family through adoption. ”

For more info visit www.choosejoyevent.com

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The Cost of Infertility 

Are you considering fertility treatments? This is a great, realistic article about the costs of various treatments. They mention a few families and their financial, as well as emotional struggles with the cost of infertility. 

Click to read 

The Cost of Infertility

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Monthly Resource Recommendation 

Resolve is an amazing resource for anyone facing the challenges of building a family. There is a tonne of information on adoption, fertility treatment, news on infertility stats and tax credits for expenses etc etc etc. 
Resolve is the U.S. National infertility association. Visit Resolve Here

Follow them on Instagram @resolveorg

Check it out, and I hope it helps you! As always if you have a resource to share, please do!